“JEAN-BAPTISTE LACROIX via Getty ImagesChrissy Teigen shared her experience with pregnancy complications and loss after nearly a month of social media silence.Chrissy Teigen opened up about her heartbreaking pregnancy loss in a powerful essay published on Medium. The model and her husband, John Legend, announced on Sept. 30 that their son Jack had not survived the pregnancy complications Teigen faced. In the weeks that followed, Teigen took a break from posting on social media, but she broke her silence on Tuesday to share her emotional post, simply titled, “Hi.”“I didn’t really know how I would start this, no matter the room or state I was in, but it feels right to begin with a thank you," 그녀는 적었다. “For weeks, our floors have been covered in flowers of kindness. Notes have flooded in and have each been read with our own teary eyes. Social media messages from strangers have consumed my days, most starting with, ‘you probably won’t read this, but…’. I can assure you, I did.”In the essay, Teigen describes her experience with partial placenta abruption during her pregnancy, from wearing adult diapers as she continuously bled to trying “bags and bags of blood transfusions” that didn’t seem to help. “After a couple nights at the hospital, my doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming — it was time to say goodbye. He just wouldn’t survive this, and if it went on any longer, I might not either," 그녀는 적었다. View this post on Instagram We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before. We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough. . . We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, 우리가 병원을 떠나기 직전. 하지만 우리는, 몇 가지 이유, 내 뱃속에 있는 이 작은 녀석을 Jack이라고 부르기 시작했어. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack은 우리의 작은 가족이 되기 위해 열심히 일했습니다., 그리고 그는 될 것이다, forever. . . To our Jack – I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you. . . Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you. . . We are so grateful for the life we have, for our wonderful babies Luna and Miles, for all the amazing things we’ve been able to experience. But everyday can’t be full of sunshine. On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it. A post shared by chrissy teigen (@chrissyteigen) on Sep 30, 2020 ~에 8:58pm PDT “I cried a little at first, then went into full blown convulsions of snot and tears, my breath not able to catch up with my own incredibly deep sadness,” she continued. “Even as I write this now, I can feel the pain all over again. Oxygen was placed over my nose and mouth, and that was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness.”Teigen addressed the hospital photos she shared on her Instagram, which she asked her mom and Legend to take, “no matter how uncomfortable it was.” She felt strongly about having them for herself and to share with others. “I cannot express how little I care that you hate the photos," 그녀는 적었다. “How little I care that it’s something you wouldn’t have done. I lived it, I chose to do it, and more than anything, these photos aren’t for anyone but the people who have lived this or are curious enough to wonder what something like this is like. These photos are only for the people who need them. The thoughts of others do not matter to me.”The tear-jerking essay describes the birth, the moment of goodbye, the plans to put Jack’s ashes into the soil of a tree at their new home, and her grief in the aftermath of the loss. She encouraged others to share their stories of loss, while also expressing despair that sharing her experience brought sadness to others. “I feel bad our grief was so public because I made the joy so public,” Teigen wrote. “I was excited to share our news with the world. Stories leading up to this had been chronicled for all. It’s hard to look at them now. I was so positive it would be okay. I feel bad that I made you all feel bad. I always will.”Read Teigen’s full essay on Medium. .elections-bpage-promo {
